Phase 1: Activation
Creator: delays, quitting, stopping practice, pausing, waiting for other factors
Son: approvals, cross criticisms, drama, running away
Phase 2: Identification
Self-Identity:
Toxic Perfectionist
People Pleaser
Others-Identity:
Train wrecks
Sad Cases
Flawed Failures
Inevitable Disasters
Phase 3: Declaration
Feelings:
Stunted
Destructive
Unhappy
Dissatisfied
Nauseous
Non-Feelings:
Free
Flowing
Light
Thinking:
Mum is carrying toxicity to her grave
Dad is complicit in the drama
Parents manipulate and control their kids
Parents bribe and kids accept payoffs
Parents give love conditionally
I play my parent’s game for security
People are tragically flawed
I’ll never be free of flaws
I can’t present poorly creatively
I can’t screw up
Non-Thinkings:
I love my flaws
I love people’s flaws
I love failing
I enjoy people’s limitations
I welcome their struggles
I love trial and error
Actions:
Give feedback when irritated
Dumping rage on other people
Trying to please everyone
Buying into other people’s drama
Collapsing my roles
Trying to speak big ideas with folks
Dumbing down ideas to fit in
Compromising my roles
Checking out of dialogues
Seeking permission and approval
Escape convos via my phone
Sedating with sugars
Seeking parental approval
Avoiding making trouble
Non-Actions:
Getting my own needs met
Putting up healthy boundaries
Focusing on my role and mission
Communicating my boundaries
Taking responsibility for my part
Opting out of the drama clearly
Backing myself
Results:
Financially broke
Sucked into family drama dependency cyle
Merry-go-round drama (family encounters)
Financially dependent (house, handouts)
Creatively blocked (output, assets, critique)
Disconnection from family (payoffs, cross-manipulation)
Debt (owing)
Freebies
Non-Results:
Prolific posting/publishing
Permissionless shipping
Standing on own two feet
Big financial wins
Paying own way
Own relationship
Being:
Cowardly
Complicit
Compromising
Fearful
Petty
Non-Beings:
Radical
Raw
Real
Phase 4: Creation
New Possibility:
Spectacularly Raw
Roles: Son, Artist, Writer, Speaker
New Identity:
Rawest Radical
Phase 4: Mission
Fighting for what?
Healing
Fighting for it where?
Family: bosas, mum, kristian manhood
Relationship: communication, congruence
Business: rote, robotic, ‘approved’, sameness
God: sacred connection, direct line, self-healing